Musings on Memories...

[elfie_chan]

Last night, I took a short trip through my past. I pulled out my old prayer journal (which I've started writing in again) and flipped back the pages to read what I was like two years ago. It was strange to see how much I've changed, how much my point of view has changed, and how much the world has changed. I've been through a lot, and some things that I thought were horrible back then don't seem so bad now.

I also wish I'd kept more accurate records of what was actually happening. All I really have in the journal are prayers about whoever/whatever I was worried about at the time, and most of them are pretty vague. From now on, I'm hoping to record more of what's going on in my life physically, as well as spiritually and emotionally. I want to be able to look back and say, "Yeah, that was the day I met so-and-so, and that's what I thought of them," and so on.

Of course, I didn't read TOO far back. Some of what I thought is too hilarious/embarrassing to read now. Anybody else journal? What's it like to look back and realize that you, too, were a young goober? Of course, I'm sure that, two years from now, when I look back at my journal, I'll think the same sorts of things: "Boy, I didn't know ANYTHING!" Heh.

Well, gotta scoot...this has been your rambling thought for the day. More updates later, if I get around to it.

Comments

Poems.

[stelas.livejournal.com]

I have a book of rather angsty poems I wrote back before I Changed (an event that occurred in my life about 3 years ago to make me get the hell on with my life rather than sitting there curled up) and occasionally I read back through them. It makes me realise how awful I was before the Change, and how I went through it.

... lord, I sound like a lyncanthrope.

Re: Poems.

[elfie-chan.livejournal.com]

*imagines Stel growing fur and fangs and howling at the moon. Grins*

Seriously, though, isn't it cool to see how far you've come? *hugs tight*