elfie_chan | Thinking and Stuff

We met with the caterer and the wedding coordinator for our church yesterday. We got the last bits of garb cut out. We got another couple of pieces of garb finished. We only have a few things left to do.

Things for this wedding are really starting to come together.

On the downside, I have to give up chocolate for a little over two weeks in an effort to fit into my wedding dress. Mom's letting it out a bit, but I still have to watch myself. *sigh* Ah, well. At least I have chai, and Alex and I are going to try to get more exercise.

This may sound odd to some of you, but I'm not used to having to watch what I eat very much. I've been trying to cut down on sugar and fat, anyway, because I have this family history of diabetes and stuff, but I seem to be gaining weight anyway. Well, I'm holding pretty steady now. I expect it's mainly the fault of the hormones. Bleh.

Today is the first time I've been able to get on the computer in a long time. I've missed it, because this is my main way to communicate with the outside world lately. Not being able to write here is really quite...constrictive, especially right now, when stress and tea are really what are keeping me going. I always feel better after I write...it makes me feel like someone's listening.

But I do have this to say: Just when I think I'm too stressed out and I just can't do any more, Alex comes out of the blue and says something unexpected that makes everything seem wonderful. A prime example happened on Sunday. We go to a young adult Sunday school class, and every week, the class passes around a notebook for people to write down their prayer requests and praises. I was feeling particularly stressed and grateful for Alex, so I wrote something like "Praise for Alex, who is there for me and manages to calm me down." Then I handed Alex the book. Later, when the prayers were read aloud (as they always are at the end of class), I found out that Alex had written, "Praise for [Elfie], who makes it all worthwhile." It doesn't get any better than that, folks. *smiles*

I've learned something. When I'm stressed, I tend to get grumpy and oversensitive. I hate that. I've been crying at the slightest provocation (which is NOT like me), getting offended at things that normally I'd just breeze through, experiencing heightened frustration, etc. etc. Alex and my family have been very supportive and understanding, but I hate it when I act like some hyper-emotional monster or something. Rawr. This morning, however, I'm drinking chai with milk and honey and listening to Megumi Hayashibara. Talk about a mood-enhancer! In a few minutes, I'll even get off my lazy rear and go take a shower! Go, me!

I found out a few days ago that my Uncle Mike is in the hospital and won't be able to come to my wedding. This kinda bums me out, because he's one of my favorite uncles and I really wanted him to be there. However, being in the hospital is a good reason not to come to a wedding. ^_^;;

Well, "Superman" just came on my little playlist, and it's time for me to go. Take care, everybody, especially