Blargh.

[elfie_chan]

Well, the computer didn't blow up when I touched it. So far, so good.

Today has been a weird and mostly not-good day. I've been in a grumpy, don't-touch-me mood all day. I don't feel good physically, mentally, or emotionally. Also, many things that I have picked up and tried to do today have not worked out. It makes me want to go to my room and play with Photoshop or something...but then there's the potential that Photoshop might blow up...besides which I have to reinstall it and I'm too spammed lazy. I've been in the mood that makes me want to growl at people for talking to me. The Christmas season is NOT supposed to be this stressful.

On the upside, I'm almost done with Alex's Christmas present. I listened to the first couple of tapes of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today with my brother, who is also sick. That was pretty cool. My dad is being really nice to me today, too. *snugs Dad*

I feel like crawling into a cave and staying there for about a week, wishing for the whole world to go away. I have too much to do and too much to think about. I need to get a job in the next couple of weeks, I need to buy that wedding ring (which I'm wondering if I'm EVER going to be able to afford), I need to get out of debt (HAH!), and I generally need to just get my life in order and get stuff done because it's only a week 'till Christmas and only a little over three months to the wedding. *curls into the fetal position and sobs*

Comments

[atrivus.livejournal.com]

*snugs Elfie mightily and offers whatever TLC he has available* I'm sorry your days haven't been the best, Elfie. Try not to focus on the stress of things and remind yourself of the joy inherent in the things that normally cause you stress instead. I'll most definitely be praying for you. Good luck!

[elfie-chan.livejournal.com]

*accepts The Loving Chocolate and munches* Thanks, Marky. I've been doing a lot of praying and seeing what all I can accomplish...it's hard having no job and no income. *snugs Marky tight* All your prayers are mightily appreciated. Things ARE getting better!