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elfie_chanI'm supposed to be finishing up a ghost story right now for my class tomorrow, but I've found that writing ghost stories (or even thinking about them too much) is not good for my sleep patterns and avoidance of nightmares. I have a VERY vivid imagination. This story, in particular, would not be a good one for me to think too much about at this time, as it involves a series of unsolved murders, fear and revenge, and a too-too-curious amateur sleuth who reads too many mystery novels. It'll have a good ending, but I don't think it would be good to work on it right now.
So...instead, I'll post those lyrics to that song I mentioned last post!
Superman (It's Not Easy)
by Five For Fighting
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It’s not easy to be me.
Now, please understand that I don't find this a depressing song. To me, this song is about someone who is perceived a certain way, and yet he wants people to know that there's more to him than what they see. He's still growing, still developing, still learning, and struggling to find and be himself.
I feel like that a lot.
I hate being classified. I hate it when people try to put me into a little box and think they know everything about me. No one knows everything about me, except probably God. Not even I know everything about me. I don't know what I'm capable of until I try. All I know is that, if I want to do something, I will, and I'll do it my way. That doesn't mean I'm not open to suggestions, but I don't do things just because somebody tells me I should. I do things because I know that they're right. Of course, I'm very good at making mistakes, but they're MY mistakes, if that makes any sense. I made them, and I can deal with them.
I guess what I'm trying to say (and this is true of everybody) is that I resent it when people learn one thing about me and then think they know everything, and so they stop trying to get to know me. There are a lot of different facets to me, a lot of things I don't show/tell other people. This probably surprises most of my friends, because I'm seen as pretty much an open book. However, very few people truly know me. It takes a while. I'm still getting to know myself, and I don't think it'll ever end. "Know thyself" is a lot more complicated than it sounds.
In any case, that's why I've adopted Superman as my theme song for the moment. It reminds me that there are so many sides to everyone, and accepting and loving all sides of the people you love is one of the greatest challenges--and the greatest joys--of being friends/in love. I just wish I could be understood...by anybody.
I also feel like I hide a lot of myself beneath an acceptable facade for fear of being rejected for the person I really am. People are used to me the way I am, and if I reveal some hidden part of myself, I wonder if they'd turn away? I don't think so...my friends (and especially Alex) have shown me that they'll love me no matter what, and I think they love me BECAUSE I'm different. It's an odd thing to be reflecting on at 2:00 am.
This has been your interesting epiphany from Elfie for the evening/morning. Now, some test results:
Which era in time are you?
Groovy, man. You know, I still use the word groovy. And I'm only 24. Go fig.
Which Hacker's Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
If you don't know who these two weirdos are, I feel sorry for you. Go watch Hackers immediately. If you know anything about the history of computers, you will laugh yourself silly. It's sooo funny. Watch it with friends.
What Never Ending Story character are you?Yeah, Ceni did this.
I'm a Main Character! WOOT! And of course I have adventures every day. My life IS an adventure. ^_^
Purrrrrrrple! WAI!
Well, enough quizzes for now. You know, I can't remember which results I've posted and which ones I haven't. I'll have to do some backreading and check that out...no repeats! G'night for now!
So...instead, I'll post those lyrics to that song I mentioned last post!
Superman (It's Not Easy)
by Five For Fighting
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It’s not easy to be me.
Now, please understand that I don't find this a depressing song. To me, this song is about someone who is perceived a certain way, and yet he wants people to know that there's more to him than what they see. He's still growing, still developing, still learning, and struggling to find and be himself.
I feel like that a lot.
I hate being classified. I hate it when people try to put me into a little box and think they know everything about me. No one knows everything about me, except probably God. Not even I know everything about me. I don't know what I'm capable of until I try. All I know is that, if I want to do something, I will, and I'll do it my way. That doesn't mean I'm not open to suggestions, but I don't do things just because somebody tells me I should. I do things because I know that they're right. Of course, I'm very good at making mistakes, but they're MY mistakes, if that makes any sense. I made them, and I can deal with them.
I guess what I'm trying to say (and this is true of everybody) is that I resent it when people learn one thing about me and then think they know everything, and so they stop trying to get to know me. There are a lot of different facets to me, a lot of things I don't show/tell other people. This probably surprises most of my friends, because I'm seen as pretty much an open book. However, very few people truly know me. It takes a while. I'm still getting to know myself, and I don't think it'll ever end. "Know thyself" is a lot more complicated than it sounds.
In any case, that's why I've adopted Superman as my theme song for the moment. It reminds me that there are so many sides to everyone, and accepting and loving all sides of the people you love is one of the greatest challenges--and the greatest joys--of being friends/in love. I just wish I could be understood...by anybody.
I also feel like I hide a lot of myself beneath an acceptable facade for fear of being rejected for the person I really am. People are used to me the way I am, and if I reveal some hidden part of myself, I wonder if they'd turn away? I don't think so...my friends (and especially Alex) have shown me that they'll love me no matter what, and I think they love me BECAUSE I'm different. It's an odd thing to be reflecting on at 2:00 am.
This has been your interesting epiphany from Elfie for the evening/morning. Now, some test results:
Groovy, man. You know, I still use the word groovy. And I'm only 24. Go fig.
Which Hacker's Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
If you don't know who these two weirdos are, I feel sorry for you. Go watch Hackers immediately. If you know anything about the history of computers, you will laugh yourself silly. It's sooo funny. Watch it with friends.
What Never Ending Story character are you?Yeah, Ceni did this.
I'm a Main Character! WOOT! And of course I have adventures every day. My life IS an adventure. ^_^
Purrrrrrrple! WAI!
Well, enough quizzes for now. You know, I can't remember which results I've posted and which ones I haven't. I'll have to do some backreading and check that out...no repeats! G'night for now!
